4 Months of Life in the Netherlands

Amsterdam canals reflection in night, 2017.

Tomorrow it is four months since I moved to the Netherlands. Now finally I also feel like life is starting to settle into a quiet routine and that my energy is starting to come back.

First months I was honestly in a haze of handling the move, leaving my life in Finland behind me, moving into my place in Amsterdam after the first month (lived my boyfriend initially), getting used to full-time work and finishing up my master’s thesis in a haze of last bits of uni stress in August. The last one and a half week of the thesis process was really crazy; I was already working a normal 40 hour work week, commuting 10 hours, and on top of that I was working on my thesis some 45 hours.

Masters Degree Graduation ร…bo Akademi

Finally got my master’s degree in marketing in September 2017 after 6 years of university.

So these past two months I have been generally getting into some kind of viable routine for myself. These last few weeks I’ve finally felt a little bit of relief – at least in most aspects of life.

Everything is in all honestly quite peachy. In all this though, I can’t help but feel a bit anxious and frustrated. Without going into very many details I’m a bit stressed about money, friends and my purpose (in life?). Luckily I’m glass half-full personality and can see the small lovely details of life, get happy from the smallest things and see the greater good in the current situation.

Seagull IJmuiden

Seagull in IJmuiden.

Life after university is indeed different and one has to start adulting for real real. Even if I’ve already been pretty used to that for many years, but this is in a very different way. Now I have less flexibility in a lot of ways, especially free time and economically.

I’m also trying to find out what greater I can do in this life for this world. I feel the urge to dive into a project of some sort, with a meaning, but I don’t know what. Or maybe I should finally do some of all those hobbies or projects I’ve been planning on getting around to do at some point? Like learning to sew clothes, start writing a book or start courses in coding.

Castricum with Dennis

In Castricum with Dennis.

But here I am. Writing on my blog. I’ve missed it. I’ve put so much preassure on myself to achieve things all the time that at some point I didn’t even think it’s worth writing anything if it’s not perfect or in line with my theme or something. Some time ago I decided to take that preassure off my shoulders and write what the heck I want to write about. Be it random stuff (like this) one day, but a well-thoughtout post another.

I’m going to enjoy what I enjoy the most in life – writing, reflecting on things, thinking critically, learning new things and growing and developing as a person.

One thing is for sure – I’ve found my home away from home and I feel like I in the end made the right decision to move here, even if I’ve been a bit unsure about it at times. I think it was a good thing I had to move quite fast, otherwise it could have honestly taken a while.

Canals of Amsterdam 2017.

Canals of Amsterdam in October 2017.

When I was moving to France in 2015 I was so hesitant for months before that I almost decided not to go. In the end things turned out just fine and I learned so many new things both professionally and personally and met the most amazing people. In all honestly life has a way of figuring itself out and I’m a firm believer of that nothing ever happens by coincidence. We all have our place, purpose and time. We’re where we are for a reason.

We all can make choices in life and we should never regret them, but instead always learn from them. If I had chosen not to go to France that year I would honestly not be where I am now. There’s so many factors that happened during those 8 months that contributed to me being exactly here right now and so many factors that could have been different if I hadn’t gone.

Sunset in Castricum 2017.

Sunset in Castricum in September 2017.

Therefore – always make a choice only for YOURSELF, never regret a choice – learn from it and allow yourself to grow, don’t dwell in what if’s and move forward. You have places to go, you have places to be and only YOU can take yourself there.

Most days I don’t even think about not being in Finland, because for years I’ve wanted to move abroad for various reasons. The only thing I really really miss is my family, dogs and friends – and proper ruisleipรค (rye bread). Luckily the Netherlands is not that far from home, so I can visit once in a while and also my lovely people can come here. As some already did during the fall ๐Ÿ™‚

Enjoy what you’re doing and life will unfold in the meantime <3

Aoife and me on canal cruise in Amsterdam 2017.

Aoife and me on canal cruise in Amsterdam, October 2017.

Janni and me in Amsterdam, October 2017.

Janni and me in Amsterdam, October 2017.

My sister and me in Antwerp, Belgium in September 2017.

My sister and me in Antwerp, Belgium in September 2017.

Fall 2017.

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